{"id":809,"date":"2016-11-01T16:59:06","date_gmt":"2016-11-01T20:59:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sallybsedgwick.com\/conversation\/?p=809"},"modified":"2016-11-01T16:59:06","modified_gmt":"2016-11-01T20:59:06","slug":"dream-update-ii","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.spiritmoxie.com\/conversation\/dream-update-ii\/","title":{"rendered":"Dream\u2014update II"},"content":{"rendered":"

One important lesson I\u2019m learning is that you need to listen to your body and the signs the Universe provides as you move forward. Listen to your heart.<\/span><\/p>\n

While I realize all this is very touchy-feely, I have some concrete examples. For instance the Universe sometimes shows up in the form of technology\u2014my phone, the internet, my computer. These devices usually support me beautifully. But sometimes one (or all!) of them just, simply, stops working. Now I have friends who think the Universe is out to get them when that happens, but personally I\u2019ve found it almost always means that I need to simply stop doing whatever it was I was doing. Usually it means I should go to bed! A minute ago the electricity went out (an extreme example), which I took to mean, \u201cGo to the library. You write better there, remember?” So right now I’m writing in the library, and I just received a text from my housemate confirming that the electricity is already back on.<\/span><\/p>\n

Earlier this year I said my dreams for 2016<\/a> were for ongoing support and unexpected adventures. \u201cDream\u201d was the mantra, and the focus behind mine was for freedom and community. Only a month later, I posted an update<\/a> and had even shared some goals, albeit reluctantly. <\/span><\/p>\n

\"BedroomMy friend the Universe, if I choose to claim her as such, had freed me from a lot of belongings and challenged me to seriously think of moving to another city and form more concretely the possibilities for Spirit Moxie. So I moved in with a friend (support), seriously explored Portland and Seattle as possible places to live (adventure), and began taking some classes to solidify the work of Spirit Moxie (support and adventure). Actually the whole year has been one of support and adventure with new friends, reconnections, and the travel I love.<\/span><\/p>\n

And frustration. While miracles continued to occur and things moved forward, the actual manifestation of “here’s a perfect place\/room to move to” never happened. <\/span><\/p>\n

\"OregonOh, for weeks my meditation time ended with an image of me walking a beach. And in July, on my birthday eve, I did find myself walking over intricate sand patterns and through tide pools on the Oregon coast.\u00a0 <\/span>As part of my exploration of Oregon, my friend Julie decided we needed an overnight at the beach so suddenly I had hours of beach wandering and just being. And I realized that, at least in this case, consistent dreaming had come true.<\/span><\/p>\n

One of my reluctantly set goals (because I had decided I wasn’t going to set goals this year) was to “create a time dancing course” and this workshop now has a name: Tango with Time,<\/i> which is a tribute to my love of dancing. It suggests the image of partnering and affirms that dancing is my preferred image for interacting with you. I am now positioning this part of Spirit Moxie so people realize that we’re not talking about “time management,” but rather changing our relationship with time. So there’s major progress on this front.<\/span><\/p>\n

But I wasn\u2019t moving forward as smoothly and quickly as I wanted, especially on the \u201cmoving locations\u201d front.<\/span><\/p>\n

Maybe this had something to do with health? I conquered most of my pain issues through sheer determination — and stretching. I got all my range of motion with no pain to return in my right shoulder, an injury I don’t know how I got. While my weight went up a tad, it never spiraled out of control and then it went back down half a tad. The only loose end was some slight anemia numbers that my doctor and I started tracking, because hey, it’s my body…<\/span><\/p>\n

A couple of weeks ago we finally did the last available test for the anemia. A bone marrow biopsy. I was rushing the process because I wanted to figure things out before I made definite plans to move, even though at this point I wasn\u2019t sure where. A week later I went back to\u00a0 <\/span>my doctor for the results.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"IVNever have I seen medical people more unconcerned when “cancer” or, in this case “leukemia,” was part of the diagnosis. It’s rare.* Easily treatable. A week, once, of chemo with about six months of monitoring is all you need. If you really want to move and have treatment on the West Coast that’s fine. <\/span><\/p>\n

But the “perfect place\/room to move to” hasn’t shown itself. And one of the best doctors I know<\/span>\u2014<\/span>the one giving me the diagnosis\u2014is also the perfect person to treat it. And I really do have love and friendships where I am now. So somehow the support and adventures dreamed about in January are manifesting as “at least six more months here in Cincinnati.” And, as occurred after my minor concussion<\/a> a year ago, I am called to increased stillness despite the fact I assumed things would “happen” (whatever “things” are) only through major activity, e.g.\u00a0 <\/span>all the traveling and exploring West Coast cities.<\/span><\/p>\n

So, I am practicing being present in the moment even more consistently. What if instead of goals and action, I just do “what is given to me to do?”** What happens then? Well, the electricity goes out. You find yourself writing at the library. You finish a conversation post when people haven’t heard from you for way too long. More exciting thoughts on time jump out of one of the books that started Spirit Moxie<\/a>.*** You meet new people and pets.<\/span><\/p>\n

“Presence” says it’s time to go home. I wonder why.<\/span><\/p>\n

But I\u2019m also wondering how are you<\/i> called? And to do what? To planning and action? Or to stillness? Or are they both the same? <\/span><\/p>\n

I wonder what our dreams will be when we arrive at 2017?\u00a0 <\/span>But that’s a whole adventure away.<\/span><\/p>\n

________________________________________<\/p>\n

*\u201dHairy cell leukemia\u201d in case you want to look it up
\n<\/span>** Book of Common Prayer\u00a01979<\/a>\u00a0(<\/em>New York: Church Publishing) p. 366
\n<\/span>***John Briggs and F. David Peat,\u00a0Turbulent Mirror: an illustrated guide to chaos theory and the Science of Wholeness\u00a0<\/i><\/a>(New York: Harper & Row, 1989)<\/span><\/p>\n

Photos by Spirit Moxie. From top:
\nBedroom window
\nOregon beach \u2014 Waldport
\nTreatment begins<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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